Gaaaaahh

[telophase]

I'm in that state where I *want* to draw, but I don't really know *what*. There's a few ideas I have for future pictures, but none of them really fit, and neither do either of the commmission-type things I've got right now*. I know that I *don't* want to do fanart, that I *think* that I *do* want to do something of a character, that I *do* want it more fantasy than modern day or SF, and...and...and.. GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH

I really really hate these states. Especially since that precious urge to create is going away, which is probably for the best because I'm frustrated enough that I wouldn't be able to draw anyway.




* Besides, I've been away from the tablet and stylus for a while. Y'all want me to warm up on something else first.

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[octopedingenue]

oh god I am feeling this way about writing right now all the time and it is driving me insaaaaaane with wanting to create something but hating the getting actually started so nothing happens and I just want it to come in a perfectly transcriptional flash of inspiration already is that too much to aaaaaask

so yes, see icon, my sympathies

[telophase.livejournal.com]

I have these little flashes of images here and there throughout the day, or impressions of things: fabric, maybe, or water, or rocks or *something* that wants to be made into a picture, and when I get to a place and time I can sit down ... it's gone. AARGH

Hell, I'm even that way right now about writing, too: it's just that urge to create sitting there and not coalescing into creating a particular thing.

[octopedingenue]

I want the whole works, presents and prizes and sweets and surprises of all shapes and sizes and NOW, DON'T CARE HOW I WANT IT NOW

God why do I/you/we have to do hard work to get stuff I want when it won't be perfect anyway and I'd rather just YELL REALLY LOUD.

[telophase.livejournal.com]

GRAAAAAAARH!!

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

May daughter does that. She wants to draw and wanders the apartment telling everyone, but she just can't think of something to draw.

I know how much it frustrates her, so I sincerely sympathize with you.

::HUGS::

[telophase.livejournal.com]

*whimpers*

I've had the must create feeling for a while, but have been making kanzashi with it. But now it's moving from physical objects to something more abstract - color, shape, form, etc., but it just won't settle down into anything coherent!

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

Does it ever take your subconscious a while to settle on what it wants and then have something unique and wonderful come out?

That's what happens to me with writing sometimes, but it's really unsettling until I receive that revelation.

[telophase.livejournal.com]

I haven't really noticed that these periods of frustration correspond with anything in particular. It'd be nice if they did so. XD

I think the creation urge is settling on drawing right now because I went to my life drawing class this morning, so it's starting to settle back in to that, and I've been reading crappy fantasy books, so it want to do something along that line, but nothing more concrete yet. I'm sure that I won't actually get anything concrete until I don't actually have time to sit down and do it, since that's the way things usually work 'round here. :/

[queenoftheskies.livejournal.com]

That's soooo frustrating.

[chomiji]

Did you ever read P.C. Hodgell's books about Jamethiel? I'm asking because I've never seen a satisfactory picture of Jame herself.

[telophase.livejournal.com]

Yeah, but it's been long enough that I'd ahve to reread them.*


* And I have to do so soon, as I promised estara a review of To Ride a Rathorn before the Chrismas buying season. :D Luckily, I found my copy of the Godstalk/Dark of the Moon omnibus when cleaning out my mom's garage last weekend. I'll fake whatever was in the third book. XD

[seawolf10.livejournal.com]

Ugh, I know the feeling. I get it with writing. Pain in the ASS.

[telophase.livejournal.com]

*whines some more*

I'm getting sleepy now. Even if I figured it out, I'd ahve to either hold off and hope it was still there tomorrow, or risk throwing my sleep schedule off. :/

[seawolf10.livejournal.com]

Or wake up in the morning and do it.

I once rolled out of bed after a nightmare and scrawled down pieces of a semi-original tie-in to Lovecraft's "Pickman's Model," because it REFUSED to let me go back to sleep. Problem is, the Cthulu Mythos market has pretty much dried-up in the last few decades.

The only easily-reusable lines...

"Rats gnaw, you see. It is habitual. They are incapable of doing otherwise, and to hear no gnawing in places where it ought to be plainly audible is profoundly disturbing. The only thing I could think of was that something had scared them all away, and what could scare a rat, I do not like to think.

Skittering, scratching sounds initially seemed to belie my fears, but upon closer investigation redoubled them. The noises were far too heavy for rats."